It’s A Brand New Day

I want to reach out to anyone who is feeling alone, isolated, unworthy, and unloved. I have struggled with a few different diagnosis. Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, PTSD, and Addiction have been the major one’s in my life for years. Sexual Abuse I have never talked about. Self-mutilation I keep a secret. I am so lost. I’m so desperate to be loved by anyone that I am willing to let anyone destroy me. Then I need to get high to NUMB everything that I am feeling at the moment. Meth is my favorite drug. I’m to the point I have to stop or it’s going to kill me.

So today I want to change that. Start a new day. Try my best very best to get clean. I know I can do this. I just have to believe that I can. I have total control, and no matter what I can’t give up!

Heather

Hopefully Moving…

Hopefully today I will find out what’s going on with my moving situation…I’m really wanting to move out of the apartment I’m in right now…if everything goes good then I have to be out of my apartment by Monday…I have lived in this apartment for 10 years and there is so many bad memories…I’m going to make the new apartment a fresh start…I’m really not taking a lot of my stuff…I’m really hoping this works out… send good vibes…

Thanks Heather

Chronic venous insufficiency

So I woke up this morning, and my foot was so swallon and a big bruise on the back of my foot…I have never been in so much pain…I felt like my foot was going to pop if It got any bigger…so I decided to go to the doctor and make sure I didn’t have a blood clot or anything… she said that it was chronic venous insufficiency… never heard of it before…but it could have been caused by me using meth… she told me that if I didn’t take care of it and it got worse I could end up losing my foot…I don’t want that to happen…so getting this news maybe what will help me quit using…