Missing a Monster

2 years ago today, I lost my best friend and a monster in my life.

He just went to go get him some drugs and after he picked it up and was driving around with a friend they ended up getting pulled over. He didn’t want to end up going to jail so he ended up eating the 5 g of meth he had on him. Sad to say it ended up killing him that day. I think of him every single day.

Today has been a really hard day for me. I really can’t believe how I have made it through this day at all. I’ve been wanting to take a whole bunch of pills that I have had in front of me all day. I just now flushed those down my toilet. I have decided that I don’t want to do that and I cooked dinner and getting ready for a visit with my mom tomorrow.


13 thoughts on “Missing a Monster

  1. Glad you are still here. You are not a mistake. You may not knkw it yet, but there is a reason you are here. And saying what you are living through here when dying looks like an option is a gift you offer to those who can’t speak. You are heard.

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