Staying clean didn’t last long…

Why is it so hard to stay away from the drug you love so much… and the only thing you can find that will numb everything you are feeling…I don’t think I’m going to be able to fight this battle that I have been thring to beat for ever…

Heather

I fucked up again…

Yeah I fucked up again and used… this past week has been a week from hell…all I wanted to feel was numb and the only thing that makes me feel that way is using meth…I went for 3 days and felt good…I didn’t think of anything else but getting high…and here I am regretting it…

My physiatrist was supposed to call me last week for our appointment and I really needed to talk to her because of the new meds she put me on…waited all day for her call and nothing… she didn’t call me until a week later and I called every day telling her it was important I wasn’t liking the way the meds were making me feel…

Thursday my therapist was supposed to call me for an appointment also…waited all day for her to call… never got a call from her…still haven’t so I said fuck with them and I don’t care anymore…

I’m really hating myself and my life right now…

Heather

Just turned “40”

So I thought I would feel a little different being a year older, nope not at all…I’m still trying to adabe to the new meds that I’m on… still not liking the way they are making me feel…I feel like they are making my systems worse… think I am going to call my doctor in the morning… Hope you all have a good night…

Happy 4th of July

Just wanted to wish everyone a Happy 4th of July… have a good day and stay safe…